As I introduced in the previous blog. I am a very spiritual person, I will never so religious because I believe that it is more than just knowing bible verses, hymns, and scriptures but it is about relationship and conversation with a higher power, in my case Jesus Christ, anywho, I have just been going through a lot lately.
I mentioned before relocating and just dealing with a lot relationship wise and career wise. If I was to rank myself, I will give myself a 10 in balances my career and gettn my personal life on track but my relationship is a 5. I am so into we gon call'em Pradablessed but we continue to bump heads tremendously we have been knowing one another for like seven years and "dating" for like almost 3 off and on in September but STILL argue and disagree on the same things.
Now grant it, your ol'boy has not been a saint and has done some pretty shallow stuff in the past, but we have always worked things out and defined us moving forward as moving on but some how some way things always comes back up and becomes a problem as if it was never taken care of or dealt with, was it? So, you tell me . . . . . Can your partner completely blow it trust wise and you forgive them and move on? Do you forgive but don't forget and wait for the next time it happens? Do you put that individual on relationship probation and have them jump through hoops and trials to gain your trust back? or Do you walk? Does that person only have one chance to blow this "Trust" thing?
Its complicated because I know that we both love one another FORREAL, A LOT but when things are bad they are REALLY bad and then when they are good there REALLY good. I completely realize that Pradablessed is like a rare breed and realize that we are both so different that we are alike and that is where the attraction lies but I just don't feel as if since I (in owner of my short comings) I did what i did, things will ever be the same again without some reservations. I know what I'm going to do but I want to know where are you with complicated relationships and where do you place them.
Some of my trouble comes from my calm and sometimes nonchalant attitude from everything else that I am going through, I am like lets put this in perspective. My life is upside down personally right now and some other major lyfe type stuff is going on and now my relationship is trying to go in the same direction do I hoop and haller and argue about this or do I deal with life now and relationship later. So I choose to deal with life and then let my relationship do what it do and take it in strides . . . . . . . .not sure if thats the right approach but I refuse to stress about too many things at one time if I allowed it all to consume me I would go crazy ya'll . . . .I know really random but it is what it is.
So I sit around believing God that my relationship, my career and the decisions that I make will get it together . . . . . . . . nevertheless . . not bitter, not mad, cuz I know it all works out in the end . . . . . .Thats why I love'em like I do!!! (You 2) SMOOCHES!!!!
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Let me introduce myself!!
So where do I start . . . . .how do I begin with this being the first post. I want to make this a habit as I keep a written journal, however, I am finding it to be much easier to type than write these days.
Intricates of me!
(1) I work in a field where I am consistently and continuously challenging others to think of the world different. Challenging them to define privilege and give it its rightful name, own it, define it, and then help me and others create safe spaces and equity amongst and for all, CHALLENGING, but what I do.
(2) I just completed a MAJOR relocation on top of starting a new position and lawd I would not have ever thought that it would be as challenging as it is. I be stressing the hell out but all at the same time I have no regrets and DO NOT take anything back from the decisions that I have made look forward to my soon to be success and accolades, cuz it just works out like that . . . my best friend consistently reminds me that I can go no where and FAVOR not be there to shine her light, I have moved several times and Favor has SHOWED OFF!!!! can i get a amen!! mmhmm
(3) Relationships, my lawd. We gon have a lot of these going on. I have found what I believe to be the love of my lyfe but when I tell you Angie Stone and tell no lie when she sang "sometimes I wanna love you" "sometimes I wonna hate you" BABY!!!!! this roller coaster be on the move but I love it all the same. I wonna know how many others have experience the strength of commitment challenge and growth. Others have their opinion of whats too much but when you have found something good sometimes you just gotta stay and fight despite the Ne-Sayers (SDK). Side note, where ever you see SDK that mean "spelling don't count" HA!!
(4) Family, family is my lyfe! I swear this is what I live for. I believe that I have the best family in the world. I am the youngest of five and it is simply amazing, our bonds are so tight, seriously. I say I have the best family but I am sure that there are so many more that have amazing families as well, I just claim mines to be simply the BEST!!! HA! Me and my mom are best friends and me and my dad are best friends, and when I say we talk about everything, I mean EVERYTHING!!! to be continued . . . . . . . .
(5) Friendships, friendships are so important to me but I have experienced some things that would blow most peoples mind when it comes to friends and the Sh** they will do. It is so hard these days to find a true, up front, to the core, honest, faithful, trustworthy, down for the cost friend. Therefore, I keep my circle SMALL!!! I remind folks when I meet them on any level, I have enough friends. You can define that for yourself. But, I simply do, if I never met another person who liked me. I have enough, and that's real talk. definitely . . . . . .to be continued . . . . . . . . .
(6) Religion, this is something that I am DEEPLY rooted in but it gets deep and confusing to some but I have my own opinions about denominations, organized religion, and church affiliations period. I will never claim to be or categorize myself to be any one thing but I do look forward to challenging others to think as well as question what it is they believe in respectfully. Never claiming one to be right or wrong, never forcing religion down any one persons throat never damming any one person to THERE damnation (self defined). But the conversations are interesting and I like to hear them. Like I mentioned before I work in a profession where I challenge thoughts of perspectives, lenses and language barriers and what to do with difference and how to co-exist with those who do not parallel or expectations. to be continued . . . . . . . . .
(7) Culture . . . . . . . let me say that again CULTURE . . . .my lawd!!! I am one proud BLACK MAN!! I am currently very active in challenging folks to recognize and evaluate the state of black America. We have made some HUGE strides *self defined* from within our own communities but compared to the majority we still have a lot of work to do. Now don't get me wrong I am not pro-black lets go fist in the air, "Roots", "Higher Learning", "Sarafina" type of guy . . . .very aware of the issues but I will NEVER force feed my opinions to anyone but I will make you think . . . . . . . . i.e.
The halls of power in America look much like the did half a century ago, before Martin Luther King, Jr., marched to Selma. Ninety-five percent of corporate management - the presidents, vice presidents, and CEO's who run America-are white males. Or as Newsweek's article put it: "White males make up just 39.2 percent of the population, yet they account for 82.5 percent of Forbes 400 (folks worth at least $265 million), 77 percent of Congress, 92 percent of state governors, 70 percent of tenured college faculty, almost 90 percent of daily-newspaper editions, and 77 percent of TV news directors."
Excerpted from Chidyea, F. (1999). The color of our future. New York: William Morrow and Company, Inc.
(for my scholars)
Just food for thought . . .to be continued . . . . . . . .
This is a slight preview into what happens simultaneously in a day of ME!!! However, I will soon share pieces of my world with my readers . . . . .until then . . . . .
If you always think what you've always thought, then you will always feel what you've always felt, then you will always do what you've always done.
If you always do what you have always done, then you will always get what you've always gotten.
If you always get what you've always gotten, then you will always think what you've always thought.
- Author Unknown.
~Peace and Blessings~
Intricates of me!
(1) I work in a field where I am consistently and continuously challenging others to think of the world different. Challenging them to define privilege and give it its rightful name, own it, define it, and then help me and others create safe spaces and equity amongst and for all, CHALLENGING, but what I do.
(2) I just completed a MAJOR relocation on top of starting a new position and lawd I would not have ever thought that it would be as challenging as it is. I be stressing the hell out but all at the same time I have no regrets and DO NOT take anything back from the decisions that I have made look forward to my soon to be success and accolades, cuz it just works out like that . . . my best friend consistently reminds me that I can go no where and FAVOR not be there to shine her light, I have moved several times and Favor has SHOWED OFF!!!! can i get a amen!! mmhmm
(3) Relationships, my lawd. We gon have a lot of these going on. I have found what I believe to be the love of my lyfe but when I tell you Angie Stone and tell no lie when she sang "sometimes I wanna love you" "sometimes I wonna hate you" BABY!!!!! this roller coaster be on the move but I love it all the same. I wonna know how many others have experience the strength of commitment challenge and growth. Others have their opinion of whats too much but when you have found something good sometimes you just gotta stay and fight despite the Ne-Sayers (SDK). Side note, where ever you see SDK that mean "spelling don't count" HA!!
(4) Family, family is my lyfe! I swear this is what I live for. I believe that I have the best family in the world. I am the youngest of five and it is simply amazing, our bonds are so tight, seriously. I say I have the best family but I am sure that there are so many more that have amazing families as well, I just claim mines to be simply the BEST!!! HA! Me and my mom are best friends and me and my dad are best friends, and when I say we talk about everything, I mean EVERYTHING!!! to be continued . . . . . . . .
(5) Friendships, friendships are so important to me but I have experienced some things that would blow most peoples mind when it comes to friends and the Sh** they will do. It is so hard these days to find a true, up front, to the core, honest, faithful, trustworthy, down for the cost friend. Therefore, I keep my circle SMALL!!! I remind folks when I meet them on any level, I have enough friends. You can define that for yourself. But, I simply do, if I never met another person who liked me. I have enough, and that's real talk. definitely . . . . . .to be continued . . . . . . . . .
(6) Religion, this is something that I am DEEPLY rooted in but it gets deep and confusing to some but I have my own opinions about denominations, organized religion, and church affiliations period. I will never claim to be or categorize myself to be any one thing but I do look forward to challenging others to think as well as question what it is they believe in respectfully. Never claiming one to be right or wrong, never forcing religion down any one persons throat never damming any one person to THERE damnation (self defined). But the conversations are interesting and I like to hear them. Like I mentioned before I work in a profession where I challenge thoughts of perspectives, lenses and language barriers and what to do with difference and how to co-exist with those who do not parallel or expectations. to be continued . . . . . . . . .
(7) Culture . . . . . . . let me say that again CULTURE . . . .my lawd!!! I am one proud BLACK MAN!! I am currently very active in challenging folks to recognize and evaluate the state of black America. We have made some HUGE strides *self defined* from within our own communities but compared to the majority we still have a lot of work to do. Now don't get me wrong I am not pro-black lets go fist in the air, "Roots", "Higher Learning", "Sarafina" type of guy . . . .very aware of the issues but I will NEVER force feed my opinions to anyone but I will make you think . . . . . . . . i.e.
The halls of power in America look much like the did half a century ago, before Martin Luther King, Jr., marched to Selma. Ninety-five percent of corporate management - the presidents, vice presidents, and CEO's who run America-are white males. Or as Newsweek's article put it: "White males make up just 39.2 percent of the population, yet they account for 82.5 percent of Forbes 400 (folks worth at least $265 million), 77 percent of Congress, 92 percent of state governors, 70 percent of tenured college faculty, almost 90 percent of daily-newspaper editions, and 77 percent of TV news directors."
Excerpted from Chidyea, F. (1999). The color of our future. New York: William Morrow and Company, Inc.
(for my scholars)
Just food for thought . . .to be continued . . . . . . . .
This is a slight preview into what happens simultaneously in a day of ME!!! However, I will soon share pieces of my world with my readers . . . . .until then . . . . .
If you always think what you've always thought, then you will always feel what you've always felt, then you will always do what you've always done.
If you always do what you have always done, then you will always get what you've always gotten.
If you always get what you've always gotten, then you will always think what you've always thought.
- Author Unknown.
~Peace and Blessings~
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